People have always asked my why I hate rain. In fact they are surprised as to how somebody like me who is an absolute romantic freak can hate the beautiful rain. But sorry folks I do hate rain. And the reasons are as stated below:

• It never rains when I want it to - There have been so many days I have been at home sipping a cup of hot chocolate and reading a good novel. The only thing missing at that moment would be a good rain lashing at my windows. At such times it is the super duper hot sun scorching or a really dull day.

• It always spoils my plans – From the days I was a kid till now the rains have always played a spoilsport to all my well laid plans for an outing. When I was a kid my dad hardly got offs or came home early. And by the time we decide to go out and get dressed it would start pouring like crazy. Even now whenever I make plans to go out with friends whether it rains or not just at the sight of those dark clouds my mom would prohibit me from stepping outside my house stating rains as a reason. I get so mad at the rain then.

• Heavy rains whenever I drive – It always pours like crazy whenever I drive back home from office. The sky is slightly cloudy when I decide to start. By the time I start it becomes super cloudy. Half way through my place it starts with a slight drizzle. And then when I’m say 15mins away from my house the heavy downpour starts. “Thank you God” those will be my exact words at such moments. Why me??? I never get answers to such questions and it drives me crazy at times.

• No holidays until it’s a flood – When I was in school I used to get off during rains but now since I work I don’t even get off for the rains when all the kids in my neighborhood get off :’(

• Accidents happen – Already people drive like crazy on the roads. With these incessant rains and water logging covering 3/4ths of our roads, there is hardly any place for us to drive. Everybody wants to avoid the water and tries to squeeze into the only available space on the road corners or near the medians. All this hungama leads to accidents most of the time. Or sometimes the downpour is so heavy you can hardly see what’s coming opposite to you or who is on your left or right. I thought driving two wheelers during rains was difficult but after being in the passenger seat in the car during rains last week has made me accept that driving a four wheeler is the worst thing to do during such heavy downpours.

• Your vehicle goes for a toss – If it’s a car or a bike the vehicle is spoilt. If it’s a car then water enters the engine either via the front/back and all of a sudden you see smoke coming out of the exhaust. Sometimes the roads are flooded so badly that you get scared if water might enter while driving through those flooded roads. And bikes/scooters also bear the brunt of the rains.
  

I have been going on and on giving reasons to hate the rain so much. But yup I do love it at times too… I love it when I’m driving my bike and I splash water off the road… Sorry people if I splashed dirty water on you but it’s not my fault you see as 1. There’s too much water on the road and 2. It’s not intentional ;) I love it when it rains early morning cos just the feel of it makes you wanna sleep more :) I love it when I’m reading a real good novel and it pours like crazy. I enjoy my book more sitting near the window or in the balcony with the cold breeze hitting you or the slight water droplets falling on you occasionally.

And there is just 1 more thing I have always wanted to do during such heavy rains. Sit by those large French windows, sipping a cup of hot chocolate and talk to your loved one about all those wonderful moments which made you fall in love and things which still make you so much crazy in love with him.

HER DIARY
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Day night, I thought he was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have some coffee. I was shopping with my friends all day long, soIely thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment.Conversation wasn't flowing, so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk, he agreed but he kept quiet and absent. I asked him what was wrong - he said,

"Nothing."I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry.

On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say, "I love u,too."

When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore.
He just sat there and watched TV.; he seemed distant and absent.Finally I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed. I decided that I could not take it anymore,so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep.

I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep. I don't know what to do. I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else.

My life is gonna be a disaster.
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HIS DIARY
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Today India lost the cricket match
against bangladesh.

DAMN
IT

Lucky i am to have found you

Lucky i am to have you love me so much

Lucky i am to be blessed a lifetime with you...

Then i wonder whats so lucky

Thats when i realize all those little things that you do which make me feel loved and cared for....

I like it when you hold my hand, first my way and then your way...

It doesn't matter which way but all i want is to be held by you...

I like it when you open the doors for me and wait for me to go ahead,

I like it when you have your arms around me and show the world I'm yours...

I like it when you just wanna keep talking and don't wanna hang up,

I like it when you comfort me knowing I'm mad at someone...

I like it when you make fun of me and pull my legs,

I like it all, every bit of it and you know what i like of all things,

When you say "I LOVE YOU", its direct and i know you really mean it when you say it...

Love you loads...

Things are finally falling into place and i'm just not able to contain my excitement... Mr. B and his family came home, both the families met and after a lot of initial hiccups things are now moving ahead in a positive direction... I'm extremely happy for both of us... Yayyy !!!

Engagement has been fixed for Nov 29th and Wedding on March 19th 2010. OMG !!! Wedding... It all sounds so exciting... It kinda took sometime for the feeling to sink in... I mean i never thought all this would be happening... Jannu is all excited and has started planning for bridal showers and spinster party... God that gal !!!

I'm so very much into LOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEE that i found these amazing quotes on line... Here they go...

• I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
  

• If i have to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU

• The spaces between my fingers were created so that yours could fill them in.

• If rain drops were kisses, I could send you showers, if hugs were seas i send you oceans and if love was a person i send you me !!

• And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. In this life, I was loved by you.

The last 1 is my favorite of all... Oye... The above quotes dedicated " JUST for YOU Sweets " !!!

Got few more nice 1s...

• Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweatpants, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her...

• Some of the greater things in life are unseen that's why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream...
  

• As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.

• The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... It shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.
  
  

At times I feel all this is a pleasant dream come true,

Is it really true that i found somebody whom I've always wanted ?

Oh God please give me a nod, that will make me happy forever....

Hand in hand we walk, and the whole world looks at us,

But I look into those eyes which have looked at me the most beautiful way,

Those eyes which made me feel naughty, funny, beautiful and what not...

Its hard to look into somebody's eyes and it takes me all courage in the world to look into his eyes,

His eyes give me the hope of living my life the way i have always wanted to...

Sitting by the window side looking at the raindrops flowing down,

All i can think of is cuddling next to him and holding him tight...

Sometimes in life you wonder how good/different it would be if you were born elsewhere. Say a different country… About being born in a different family I would not comment as it’s one’s personal view… But why do you get such thoughts? What makes you feel so?

Of course, then come into picture our very own cousins who are born here and brought up abroad… Ah god, you tend to go into depression if you spend just an hour with them… Same blood, same family but so much of a difference… That too in a larger magnitude I would say… What makes them so different? I wondered at nights to find a plausible solution… I may be right or wrong but I’m sure there are a lot of people who would want to strongly agree with my views…

A major reason would be the parental upbringing based on where you’re located… The next reason would be your friends or the American counterparts and also your neighbors… Parents who have settled there for a couple of years are already accustomed to the society and the upbringing there… They don’t want to force their kids over anything… It’s the kid’s choice all the time… They do suggest the good and bad but the kid wins ultimately… I wonder if it ever happens here… Let’s take a simple e.g. here… The other day my cousin and uncle were down in India on their spring break. My uncle works as a professor in a reputed University and my cousin is 15yrs old… What she eats, what she wears is all her choice… Since they have come down after a gap of 8yrs everybody in the family is excited including me… Lunchtime is when all of us are seated and anxious to have the really amazing food my mom prepared… My mom and I go around serving everybody… I come to serve my cousin and she immediately says No to the non vegetarian dishes… Apparently she’s a volunteer for the environment club in her school and has quit non veg food to avoid cruelty against animals… My grandma and mom try to reason it with her and make her eat but she’s steadfast with her decision… From then on what she needs on her plate is her choice... She refuses to be served and wants to help herself… And I forgot to mention her excellent table manners and courtesy… The way she says thank you with a smile on being served just swipes you off your feet… A sorry for saying No to your dishes… In India, even if people step on your feet accidently they just give you a rude stare as if you intentionally put your foot under their legs, forget the sorry and thank yous’ here!!! You don’t even get a polite smile back… People think you’re crazy if you try to be polite… When will people change I never know…

The kids abroad are encouraged to take cross country trips there just to meet up friends during their vacation… Here for a college trip you need to go on and on to convince your parents to say a Yes… And that doesn’t happen so easily… You undergo a series of question and answer sessions… Who are the gals coming with you? Are their parents ok with their daughters going for the trip? How many guys are there in your class? How good are they? Now I can’t give them a scorecard of all the guys in my class can I? Why cant parents just say a yes… I definitely accept they care for us and that they are worried about our safety… But aren’t we grown up enough to take care of ourselves… When will our parents give us that freedom or trust us with it? All through your life you are directed on what to do, how to do it and what not to do… Parents please give us a break… What you study, where you study, what you do during your vacation – everything is decided by them… Doesn’t our choice ever matter to them? Don’t they want to know if we are really happy doing what they want us to do… They just assume we are happy… If we try to reason out or show our displeasure then we are considered to be rude, arrogant, and selfish and a person who doesn’t respect elders… We are even forced to eat… Take a cup of juice, my cousin says No to it and my dad tells my mom, go ahead just give it to her, she’ll drink it eventually… That’s when my uncle says no don’t do that… If she says no then she will not drink it… So just leave it… I was wondering what would have happened if I was in her place… In spite of my repeated No’s I would have been forced till I ultimately said yes and finished the juice… God what life, you can’t even refuse a juice…

The way they speak English is something I would not forget… The accent is unavoidable, but the no – grammatical – mistake - statements are just too good… Nobody makes an issue if they don’t speak in their mother tongue… I don’t know why our uncles and aunts don’t make it mandatory… It’s really important that children know to speak in their native language… But they go ahead to learn international languages like French, German, Spanish etc… This would be the only point where I would disagree with their lifestyle/upbringing…

Its high time parents learn something from their siblings in US and UK… A drastic change needs to be brought in the way our children are being bought up… Some basic freedom needs to be given. If not in the upbringing, at least they should be given the freedom to choose their own career and the life ahead… I know someday it would happen when we will be proud to stand next to our American cousins without any regrets in our hearts… I am gonna make my kid feel proud for sure :)

When I woke up yesterday morning little did I realize that it was gonna be one of the worst days of my life.

I woke up hearing to my mom and dad yelling at each other. After a few minutes of careful hearing I realized that the cause was my stupid sister. Dad was yelling at her saying she spends more time in front of the mirror than with her books… With all this yelling how can one sleep peacefully, so I finally decided to get up… I was still sitting on my bed, my legs refusing to get down when my dad peeped into my room and had a sarcastic comment for me – “Our baby has finally got up”!!! Grrrrrrrrrrr… Nothing can ever stop these people I tell you. I finished my morning chores, had an early breakfast and got ready. Mom wanted me to take her to bank and for some other work. She assured me all that will get over in max 15mins and I can get back home by 11 so that I can start to office in bus. But as I was getting ready my perfume bottle slipped from my hand and broke into pieces. I was literally in tears… It was a good perfume and a gift from my uncle in London. :( Didn’t have time to clean the mess… Had to leave.

Here comes the bank story. All I had to do in the bank was give them the fixed deposit forms, tell them that it’s matured and hence I need the cheques today. There was this nice, kinda pretty looking gal at one of the counters. She’s the kind guys would call ‘Adaka Odukamana Ponnu’… The whole process would hardly take her 15mins, but by the time it was done I had waited 45mins in the bank. Though I was really mad I just dint have the heart to blame her. 1. Cos she seemed sweet and soft gal to me and 2. It wasn’t her fault that it got late. Nobody let her do any work… Her own colleagues had 101 doubts every second and any visitor who came in went straight to her. Guys hardly noticed the ‘May I Help You’ counter at the entrance. In they walked and straight to her seat as if they were destined to meet her… Stupid guys… Amidst all this she kept looking at me and kept nodding to say it will get over soon. Finally after a wait of 45mins I got the cheques and I left immediately. Dropped my mom half way back and headed to office…

The whole bike driving process was such a pain. I waited in the Koyambedu main signal for damn 15mins… I practically saw the signal change from red to green almost 4 times but surprisingly I was still stuck in the same signal... This bad luck didn’t end just here… It followed me to all the signals till I reached office… The only good thing was that it wasn’t hot yesterday. There was no trace of sun and it was cloudy so I was saved from sun burns and getting tanned…

At office day wasn’t very great either... There was this long pending issue of mine that got back to our queue. There is nothing my team has to do in that ticket but after making rounds with all the other teams it is back in our queue… I have to escalate this and it’s a big process :( The events went well and I guess people had fun. They all participated in all the games and Utsav ended on a good note. The culturals are still pending. Not sure when we will be having them. I was super hungry after the events. Pulled along Jannu to cafeteria to have chikku milkshake. But it didn’t taste good. Left a sour taste in my mouth... Couldn’t take it anymore after finishing 3/4^th of the glass… Jannu thought having orbit would make me feel better. In a hurry to get rid of that sour taste I popped in two pellets of orbit… Later realized it was clove flavor… It was super strong and made me feel worse… God can things get any worse??? Came back to seat, finished my pending work and started browsing for gifts for a 3yr old…

I was actually surprised with the collection of gifts each site offered. I mean kids these days have almost anything and everything they can ask for… Some toys were too cute and adorable… I ended up wishing I had those toys with me :( Uhhh no I rather wish I become a kid… No worries, no work. All you get to do is just eat, play and sleep… Wonderful life….

I was very tired and super sleepy by the end of the day… All the running around in heels for the events got me really really tired so I wasn’t in a mood to drive back home and decided to take the cab. My bad stint with traffic continued in the night too… There was super traffic and I reached home only 10.30… I was literally starving and gulped dinner in exactly 15mins… The quickest I have ever finished food… Crashed early and had a good undisturbed sleep for 6hrs… Guess this was the other best thing that happened in the whole day… (The first being cake shopping :))

The other day I was listening to Vaaranam Aayiram while having an impromptu drive with a friend… I was recollecting every scene as the songs kept playing… Lovely songs and amazing visuals… I like them so much that got the videos downloaded to my phone… I remembered how I badly wanted to watch the first day first show of that movie. But since I did not get tickets, settled with second day first show. So here goes my recollection of the entire day.

My company has a celluloid club which offers tickets for the latest releases… One would not want to miss such an opportunity the theater being Sathyam. So when the mail came announcing tickets for Vaaranam Aayiram I didn’t want to miss it for anything in the world… Called Prem in advance to book tickets for me offline… It really pays to know so many people in office. I didn’t have to stand in queue in front of Prem’s desk. My tickets were taken care off ;) The plan was to watch the movie with Jannu. But her ill luck the show timings were 7.30a.m on a Saturday morning… Now expecting Jannu to wake up earlier than 10 o clock is like expecting snowfall in Chennai ;) And I didn’t want to miss the movie. So I was wondering whom to take along… Not many wanted to come being it that early in the morning. Now I can’t expect everybody to be as crazy as me. So finally I decided to take my sister along.

My sister was having her semester exams those days and initially my mom was skeptical about letting her go for the movie. But wonder of wonders my dad gives her a big go for the movie. I have never got permission to do such a thing during my semesters… This was atrocious… I was even banned from watching TV – the reason being I might forget whatever I read… Too much… Whatever, we got perm and I was happy that I didn’t have to go alone for the movie. On the ‘D’ day I woke up with a constant ringing of alarm, which I realized after I was wide awake was my sister’s… A gal who does not get up even to study during her semesters early morning (she prefers to sit up late) has kept alarm for 6a.m :O She woke up before me, brushed, showered and asked me to make Bournvita for her… I did not have any words for her… I was just overwhelmed with surprise and shock… It was super dark outside and I thought the sun is yet to rise ;) Little did I realize then that it was gonna pour like crazy in sometime… Suddenly I hear a heavy downpour… I literally wanted to scream out at the Rain God… All my plans to watch Surya gone down in rain… That’s when I decided rain or storm or sun I’m gonna watch the movie come what may… I was happy that my sister too shared the same spirit… At times like these is when I love my sister a lot…

I got out my raincoat, umbrella, jacket and everything possible that would keep my sister dry (she has an exam to attend) so I didn’t want her to get wet… By then my parents also woke up… My dad offered to drop us but it was already late… So all dressed in raincoat and stuff my sister and I set out to watch Vaaranam Aayiram :) With the rain lashing mercilessly it was fun to drive in the rain… Never ever done that before and I doubt if I would do it again too… Luckily there weren’t many people on the road… Ya ya what would one wanna do on the road with the heavy rains… People aren’t crazy… We finally reached the theater 15mins early and had enough time to dry ourselves and watch the amazing movie… This experience is something I would never ever forget…

I know well what I am fleeing from but not what I am in search of. ~Michel de Montaigne

I am: fun loving, romantic freak, sweet, impatient and a cranky person at times.

I think: parents should let go of their inhibitions and chill out with us like good friends.

I know: what I’m doing is right for me.

I want: my friends to always be there for me just the way I will be there for them.

I have: many friends and feel lucky to have them.

I wish: to live happily ever after…

I hate: it when it rains like crazy and am all decked up to go out.

I miss: those days when all I had to do was come back from school, do my homework and play hide and seek with friends.

I fear: of stepping out of my bed in the night thinking a pair of hands might come and grab my legs :(

I feel: like having all the varieties of ice creams and still not get bored of it.

I hear: to Nenjukull Peidhidum almost everyday and still never get bored of it.

I smell: the yummy Kadai Paneer pizza that I had as a snack in the evening ;)

I crave: for those sweet nothing moments.

I search: for eternal happiness.

I wonder: why I’m so impatient?

I regret: not being close with my family.

I love: to paint, chat endlessly and read books.

I ache: when I see kids and old people begging on the streets and at traffic signals.

I care: for my fellow beings and see to it that I don’t hurt them.

I am not: a saint to let go of everything, certain things just cannot be forgiven and forgotten.

I believe: I can always do what I want no matter where and how I’m.

I dance: like no one’s watching.

I sing: quite ok. I love to listen to myself singing.

I cry: but I don’t let others see my tears.

I don’t always: let out things that bother me.

I fight: like crazy with my sister though most of the fights are really silly.

I write: when am happy. I write when am sad. I write when I’m in love.

I win: most of the time in arguments ;)

I lose: when I want somebody else to win just to see the smile on their face.

I never: forget to brush my teeth before sleeping in the night.

I always: keep cleaning things and prefer them to be organized and neat.

I confuse: myself over the silliest of things.

I listen: to my mom complaining that I never listen to her almost every morning, noon and night ;)

I can usually be found: lazing on my bed, listening to songs and with a book in hand.

I am scared: I might wake up one day and find myself stranded on an island surrounded by crocodile and lizards... Eeeeeeeeeeeewwwww...

I need: to learn to be more patient and get a control over my temper.

I am happy about: the way life has shaped up for me.

This something i wrote really long back but never posted... Came across this 1 while reading my diary...

You

Is it jus me or does it really exist ?
Why do i get excited the moment our eyes meet ?
I wait for it to happen and it happens when i least expect it..
How i wait to jus catch a glimpse of u, my day feels incomplete without it...

Ur cute lil smile, ur aristocratic walk, the lovely talk who wouldnt wanna have it for life...
If i were a guy and u a gal i wudnt have spared a moment but jus gone on my knees 4 u,
To ask ur hand in marriage..
You dont have to ask me jus look into my eyes which are jus waitin to tell you - Yes, I will...

I don’t understand how a piece of paper with boxes can take control of your life just like that... Yes I’m talking about HOROSOCPE… I guess it can be called “HORRORSCOPE” instead… For 2 people to be wedded in happy matrimony why do you have to check a piece of paper and consult some priest or astrologer?? Being happy in a marriage is in the hands of the couple… I don’t understand how in 21st century people still believe in horoscope and astrology… It sucks big time I tell you… I’m surprised those guys predict the next 20yrs ahead of you and tell you that things are gonna be bad… I’m just wondering do these guys give you only bad news or they have given good news also ? I have never heard of such a thing… Its all just a method to milk you out of your hard earned money… They tell you this is wrong, that is wrong do this pooja and things will be alright… Who will do the pooja, the astrologer says with a big heart I’m there right, will take care of everything, and you just pay me by cash… Gawddddd… Save us from such people… If only I could strangle those guys…

All they have to tell you is that things would not be fine and thats it your parents go crazy... As if things were already very smooth in life these guys jump in to decide our life for us... I cant believe the other day when the astrologer said if this particular gal and guy get married there will be issues, in laws will trouble the poor gal and the guy will divorce her... Atrocious... Any person with brains would have stormed out of that place at that instant... Nobody thinks about what the gal and the boy feel about the whole thing... Already they are confused over the whole marriage thingy, to top it booom comes the astrolger with a truck load of crap... I really dont know where the world is going with all this astrology, palmistry, numerology, blah, blah and blah..

But if given a chance I would be happy to prove the piece of paper wrong !!!

Yes I finally did it and trust me it feels absolutely gr8!!! I dono where from I got the guts to tell him that I liked him loads but I’m thankful I did… I just called him for a break, we met and at that instant I wanted to excuse myself and just runaway. But I knew I had to do it and if not for that moment I’m never gonna do it… And he was wearing my favorite pink shirt, guess that helped a lot too ;)

We started with the usual chit chat talking about books, his long drive @ midnight with his best friend, and the heavy lunch treat that he had returned from, car pooling, my new apartment and all that… I dint know where, when and how to start the topic but as we got into our comfortable zone of chatting I felt the tension easing within myself… After sometime I realized we were out of topics and that I had to let it out now before he says lets move…

I dono if I sounded funny/serious/crazy when I said it all but I hope I made sense… I loved looking @ all the expressions he gave – a slightly stunned look, the cute smile, and the confused (I dono how to react) look :) He just kept saying Ok Ok… I had let it all out and I felt really better… But for the past 2days I’m going crazy waiting for his reply… I mean I’m just not able to decide if he’s gonna say a Yes or a No… But all I feel is that if he’s taking so much time then he should be doing a lot of thinking, weighing all the options, the plus and minuses etc… So when he gets back to me with his reply (dono when that’s gonna be) I’m sure the decision would be sensible….

All’s well that ends well is a good saying which I hope happens in my life too…

My last post was on May24th 09… Whoa… Tats like a long time ago… Eppadi iruntha naan.. Ippadi aayittein :( I never thought I would be so loaded with work at any point of time in my life… I have wrecked my eating and sleeping habits… I’m beginning to get dark circles around my eyes due to lack of sleep… Whaaaaa… God save me… I badly need a break… A trip to Bangalore would be something I would jus loveeeeeeeeeeeee right now…

Ranjith is back from the US of A… He has lost some weight… But looks fine… He got me a cover full of chocs, a lipstick which is an amazing shade, beautiful and cute 2^nd studs and above all “ DAVIDOFF Cool Water”… Can anything beat this gift ??? Whoaa… I told him I’m never gonna use it… Jus keep looking @ it and smell it at times… I jus won’t have the heart to use it… All this was on Monday and I still haven’t eaten even a single choc from that pack he gave me… I was kinda off and down that day… Dono y… I was actually very excited to see him, but all this sun n loss of sleep made me look sick and tired I believe… Jannu and Ranjith were worried if I had cried in the morning and if something was bothering me… I said no I’m fine… But is something bothering me??? I really dono…

I have always wanted live life to the fullest, but somehow these days it seems a pain to jus live life… I dono whom am gonna marry, neither am I ready to whole heartedly jump into marrying some strange guy, neither do I really love somebody to such an extent that I wanna jus marry him and only him… I dono where and what went wrong and why all of a sudden life seems so dull... Initially I was happy to be working so hard cos it kept me occupied… But now its such a headache… I’m getting bored… I cant afford to take off also cos all are major issues and 1 escalation too :( Hope @least by August I get to finish the major issues… I need a break… Hope all the financial matters for the new apartment are over soon so that we can start with the interior work… My mind will be on it for a while… Cant wait to move there actually… It’s a big change… Lived in Greenfields for almost more than 10yrs now… The new apartment will be closer to office too..

My lead isn’t here in office today… Suffering from so called 101^o ‘fewer’… I know that’s how he has spelled fever… Ivaru ellam oru lead… Hmmm… My issue kinda got solved… Still few more things to do and since am already in the weekend mood I don’t wanna work on it anymore… Hence this free time to blog… Dono when my next post is gonna c the light… Anyway tats all for now…

P.S. Jannu this time the title would be more appropriate.

Phew... Longgggggggg time... Blogging after quite sometime now... Have been kinda busy since the 2nd week of May... We have taken the Primary role and hence all the hullabaloo... It feels really nice to be so busy with work after all those months of training... Even now i'm undergoing .Net training but tat happens only when am free... Cos the issues take up most of my time i'm rarely into .Net... Its a new application and hence its good to analyse the ticks that we get... Sometime when we are absolutely clueless about the issues is when we regret not listening to Denise during the KT sessions... But thanks to our brilliant brains that had asked her to record the sessions, its really handy now... I get to work in shifts either 9-5.30 or 12.30-9... I'm fine with that too... I jus finished my 1st week in the 1st shift... Dad drops me and i take the PTC back home in the evenings... I reach only by 6.30 or 7 and would imme log in to attend calls or meetings... But i prefer getting back home soon... So for all those ppl who made fun of me for being vetti and jobless watch out now cos 'Somebody's WORKING !!!'

Weekend was ok... Did a coupla sketches after a long time... Used the drawing book i got as a gift 4 my Bday.. No mood to paint so jus stopped with the sketches... Will paint some other day... Frm tomo i'm in the 2nd shift so neednt get up early :) Jus saw the last over of the DLF IPL finals... DC vs RCB... Wtd RCB to win :( but they dint... Anyway a good match... Hoping @least nxt IPL CSK wins...

Life's kinda dull these days... Feeling left out @ times... Sudden bouts of depression, getting pissed off for the slightest of things, not willing to talk to people... Weird but not new... The whole of last week though i was drowned in work i felt all alone and pushed out... I need a good break but i have no clue where i wanna go... Even if i plan its not gonna work for sure... The only thing for me 2 cheer up are the upcoming weddings that am gonna be attending - Vaid, Subi and Priya... cant believe these guys are getting married... Phew time flies off so fast...

I hope the coming week @least brings me some joy and happiness if not something to rejoice about... Got a coupla ticks that need to be solved, praying that they are closed soon too... Hope everybody has a great week ahead too...

These are some of my all time favourite English movie dialogues... The first one is the best and close to my heart...


Run away bride
I guarantee that we'll have tough times. And I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us will want to get out. But I also guarantee, that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life. 'Cos I know in my heart, you're the only one for me....

Alex and Emma
Some things are not meant to last,
they just take a place in your heart
and make you smarter the next time...

A Lot Like Love
If your not willing to sound stupid,
you're not worthy of falling in love.

Sweet Home Alabama
Truth is, I gave my heart away along time ago,
my whole heart, and I never really got it back.

The Hot Chick
You are the only person that can make
my heart beat faster and slower at the same time...

Casper
If I tell you I love you, can I keep you forever?

Notting Hill
I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.

When Harry Met Sally
When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible....

Sweet November
I surrender all attempts to control life, yours or mine. I live for one thing, to make you happy; to live firmly and joyously in the moment. November is all I know, and all I ever want to know.

If I’ve learned anything it’s that you should have the people who love you, around you as long as you possibly can.

Madagascar
Alex the Lion: Surprise!
Marty the Zebra: Aaahhh! Alex! Do not interrupt me when I'm daydreaming. When a zebra’s in the zone, leave him alone.”

Private the Penguin: Skipper. Shouldn't we tell them that the boat is out of gas?
Skipper the Penguin: Nah! Just smile and wave, boys. Smile and wave. [all four penguins waving]

I dono why but I feel so weird writing this... I'm so depressed and absolutely sad... In tears as I pen down these thoughts... Damn I hate this... I've always wanted a Love Marriage... Though I've seen a lot of failed love marriages I still preferred it cos I really don’t wanna marry some strange guy... I don’t wanna marry a weirdo... I wanted to prove to the world that love marriages still work and it’s in ur hands... I wanted mine to be a perfect love story with a perfect wedding... Guess it’s never gonna happen now... Yes, I’m officially screwed for life… I have said ok to this Business Analyst guy... My parents have been pestering me over him for a long time now… I have already seen this guy and said No… But apparently my NO wasn’t passed on to them… And so they are back in track asking for me… Why do you do this to me God???

Stranger - I don’t know anything about him other than he’s a Gold medalist from Anna University… That’s why my dad is so into this guy… I know he’s fair, looks fine, wears specs and is 2-3yrs elder to me… Is this enough for me to say ok? No… Absolutely No… I need to know him more… I need to know what his likes and dislikes are… If he’s a movie buff… If he likes reading books… What if he can’t talk English as fluently as me…? What if he hasn’t seen any English movies other than dubbed 1s…? What if kumudam and ananda vikatan are the only books he reads… God, then my life’s gonna be miserable for sure… I am not very sure of his dressing sense too… I’m very sure I can’t change his habits now… I will be the one who has to adjust… I really don’t wanna do so much for somebody whom I don’t even know… Why should I adjust? Give me 1 good reason for it… Oh no…. I really don’t wanna do it… Everybody tells me I’ll get a good guy… Will he be the 1? Will he like me for the way I’m? Will he love me truly? How can I take such a big decision in my life without knowing any of the answers…? Somebody tell me… Please… Is it really worth?

Mr. Perfect – I first saw him 1.5yrs back… I still remember those looks we exchanged… I dono if he remembers them… I haven’t mentioned it till date to him… He always intrigued me… And the more we saw each other the more I wanted to talk to him and know him… And then suddenly 1day I dint find him in his seat… After a coupla days I too moved away… I kinda got busy and forgot all about him…And then wonder of wonders I see him after months with a common friend… I started bugging my friend for details about him… My happiness knew no bounds when I found out he was single J He he… Ya… I always bugged my friend for an intro but somehow never got the guts to face it… My secret crush over him jus kept growing… And will you believe it when I was kinda forced to talk to him… Ya it was a mandatory thing I couldn’t escape from… I did talk to him… And guess after that there was no looking back… We talk lots… I know his likes and dislikes… I know what he does when he’s free… What kinda gal he wants etc etc… He has a good dressing sense… Everyday when I see him there’s this melody running inside my head and butterflies all around me J It’s a nice feeling you know… You should definitely experience it… At this point of time we are good friends… I really like him… He fulfills all the criteria for my Mr. Perfect… Whenever I look into his eyes I jus wanna go tell him how much I love him and what he means to me… But I know I’m never gonna do that… I really dono if I’m the right gal for him… I dono what he thinks of me so I really don’t wanna screw whatever we share… So guess I’ll never tell him that I like him… But I’ll always be waiting for him to give me jus a small signal which I can take as a YES… Wish he was mine forever…

Mere Maula Maula Mere Maula, Man Matwala Kyun Hua Hua Re
Man Maula Maula Mere Maula, Mere Maula..

Kis Taraf Hai Aaasmaan, Kis Taraf Zaameen
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi
Oo Oo, Jab Se Aaya Hai Sanam, Mujhko Khud Ki Bhi
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi
Oo Oo, Hosh Gul Sapno Ki Mein Bandhu Pull, Aankh Kab Khuli
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi
Oo Oo, Kis Taraf Hai Aaasmaan, Kis Taraf Zaameen
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi

Mere Maula Maula Mere Maula, Man Matwala Kyun Hua Hua Re
Man Maula Maula Mere Maula, Mere Maula..

Got to be LOVE... Got to be LOVE...
Oo got to be LOVE....
Its got to be LOVE...
Got to be Love cos its really got me goin...
Its got me goin....

Jaane Kab Kahan Kaise, Tere Ho Gaye Kaise
Hum To Sochte Hi Reh Gaye, Aur Pyaar Ho Gaya
Mere Khawaab Dil Saaansein, Mil Ke Kho Gaye Aise
Tujko Dekh Ke Aisa To, Kai Baar Ho Gaya
Tu Kahe Dil Yeh Tera Hi Rahe, Aur Kya Kahun
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi
Oo Oo, Kis Taraf Hai Aaasmaan, Kis Taraf Zaameen
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi

Mere Maula Maula Mere Maula, Man Matwala Kyun Hua Hua Re
Man Maula Maula Mere Maula, Mere Maula


                   Aayega Woh Is Intezaar Mein
                   Ud Chala Dil Wahan Sapne Jahan Mein Janu
                   Lagta Hai Woh Mere Kareeb Hai
                   Aisa Kyun Hai Magar Dhunde Nazar Beqabu
                   Hosh Gul Sapno Ki Mein Bandhu Pull, Aankh Kab Khuli....
                   Khabar Nahi.. Oo Oo


Kis Taraf Hai Aaasmaan, Kis Taraf Zaameen
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi
Oo Oo, Jab Se Aaya Hai Sanam, Mujhko Khud Ki Bhi
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi
Oo Oo, Hosh Gul Sapno Ki Mein Bandhu Pull, Aankh Kab Khuli
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi
Oo Oo, Kis Taraf Hai Aaasmaan, Kis Taraf Zaameen
Khabar Nahi, Khabar Nahi

Got to be Love cos its really got me goin...
Its got me goin....

Mere Maula Maula Mere Maula, Man Matwala Kyun Hua Hua Re
Man Maula Maula Mere Maula, Mere Maula..




I jus love this song from Dostana... Got amazing lyrics.. So thought will share it with you guys... Its in
Hindi, so folks who cant understand it, u can always buzz me 4 the translation :)

I always remember how my mom used to say “You start cooking you’ll realize the hardship in it” whenever I grumbled about the food she made… Yesterday I tried my hands on something touted as the 1 of the most difficult tasks… Yes… It’s making chappathis … Luckily my mom saved me the pain of kneading the dough...

I was busy watching Friends on my computer when she barged into the room saying, “Ramya, go make the chappathis”… I was like what… She says “I always do them; it’s high time you learn… What will you do when you get married? ”…. Why do they always have to pull me getting married in this…? I don’t understand… I shall manage after I get married… I hope I find a guy who helps me in cooking :( I really don’t want somebody who keeps bossing around giving instructions as to what he wants to eat and how I should cook… I shall definitely tell him “Ok, the kitchen is all yours, cook whatever you want and eat”… :) Obviously I’m not gonna take orders from some weirdo…

Ok now coming back to reality, I figured out that my mom needed the comp to play games and hence the entire ‘chappathi making hungama’… God save me!!!! I go to the kitchen to find a ball of kneaded dough… I found the chappathi making stone and the rolling pin (belan) and washed it and let it dry… Meanwhile I broke the ball to as many small balls of dough as possible… And hence started the process of making chappathis…

I tell you, it’s not that difficult as our mothers claim it to be… Ya, initially you might have some trouble with getting the perfect round shape… I began with maps of Australia and Africa… In the process I even got an irregular heart shaped chappathi… Finally by the time I was making my fifth chappathi, the round began to appear :) Voila! And I finally mastered the art of making chappathi… But by the end of it I was all tired and sweaty… And I still had to roast them on the tava… Oh no… I jus cant do so much work in a day… :O By then my mom had come for supervision and the argument began as to who makes the better chappathis… Since dinner time was nearing she offered to roast them or I would rather say she had no choice but to do it cos I told her I was gonna shower, as all tat cooking drove me mad…

Dinner was good… With the yummy chappathis that I made and the awesome mutton curry that my mom made :) I’m very sure the chappathis made the curry taste better (my mom jus doesn’t agree to this)…

P.S. I have decided that in future I will cook in a kitchen that either has a fan or an centralized AC… Or else I’m gonna boycott cooking… What say ???