Yes I finally did it and trust me it feels absolutely gr8!!! I dono where from I got the guts to tell him that I liked him loads but I’m thankful I did… I just called him for a break, we met and at that instant I wanted to excuse myself and just runaway. But I knew I had to do it and if not for that moment I’m never gonna do it… And he was wearing my favorite pink shirt, guess that helped a lot too ;)

We started with the usual chit chat talking about books, his long drive @ midnight with his best friend, and the heavy lunch treat that he had returned from, car pooling, my new apartment and all that… I dint know where, when and how to start the topic but as we got into our comfortable zone of chatting I felt the tension easing within myself… After sometime I realized we were out of topics and that I had to let it out now before he says lets move…

I dono if I sounded funny/serious/crazy when I said it all but I hope I made sense… I loved looking @ all the expressions he gave – a slightly stunned look, the cute smile, and the confused (I dono how to react) look :) He just kept saying Ok Ok… I had let it all out and I felt really better… But for the past 2days I’m going crazy waiting for his reply… I mean I’m just not able to decide if he’s gonna say a Yes or a No… But all I feel is that if he’s taking so much time then he should be doing a lot of thinking, weighing all the options, the plus and minuses etc… So when he gets back to me with his reply (dono when that’s gonna be) I’m sure the decision would be sensible….

All’s well that ends well is a good saying which I hope happens in my life too…

My last post was on May24th 09… Whoa… Tats like a long time ago… Eppadi iruntha naan.. Ippadi aayittein :( I never thought I would be so loaded with work at any point of time in my life… I have wrecked my eating and sleeping habits… I’m beginning to get dark circles around my eyes due to lack of sleep… Whaaaaa… God save me… I badly need a break… A trip to Bangalore would be something I would jus loveeeeeeeeeeeee right now…

Ranjith is back from the US of A… He has lost some weight… But looks fine… He got me a cover full of chocs, a lipstick which is an amazing shade, beautiful and cute 2^nd studs and above all “ DAVIDOFF Cool Water”… Can anything beat this gift ??? Whoaa… I told him I’m never gonna use it… Jus keep looking @ it and smell it at times… I jus won’t have the heart to use it… All this was on Monday and I still haven’t eaten even a single choc from that pack he gave me… I was kinda off and down that day… Dono y… I was actually very excited to see him, but all this sun n loss of sleep made me look sick and tired I believe… Jannu and Ranjith were worried if I had cried in the morning and if something was bothering me… I said no I’m fine… But is something bothering me??? I really dono…

I have always wanted live life to the fullest, but somehow these days it seems a pain to jus live life… I dono whom am gonna marry, neither am I ready to whole heartedly jump into marrying some strange guy, neither do I really love somebody to such an extent that I wanna jus marry him and only him… I dono where and what went wrong and why all of a sudden life seems so dull... Initially I was happy to be working so hard cos it kept me occupied… But now its such a headache… I’m getting bored… I cant afford to take off also cos all are major issues and 1 escalation too :( Hope @least by August I get to finish the major issues… I need a break… Hope all the financial matters for the new apartment are over soon so that we can start with the interior work… My mind will be on it for a while… Cant wait to move there actually… It’s a big change… Lived in Greenfields for almost more than 10yrs now… The new apartment will be closer to office too..

My lead isn’t here in office today… Suffering from so called 101^o ‘fewer’… I know that’s how he has spelled fever… Ivaru ellam oru lead… Hmmm… My issue kinda got solved… Still few more things to do and since am already in the weekend mood I don’t wanna work on it anymore… Hence this free time to blog… Dono when my next post is gonna c the light… Anyway tats all for now…

P.S. Jannu this time the title would be more appropriate.