For almost a week now I've been one seriously confused person. I have been promising myself a job search but I only keep searching and saving them but not applying for any of them... I want to work for sure. Staying at home is driving me crazy… It’s just that I don’t exactly know what kind of work I want to do… I definitely don’t want to get back to the hectic Software job. I don’t want to come back home thinking about on call schedules/how my weekends might get ruined/why that logic doesn’t work/what trouble my lead or team mates will give me. I have been in the software field for 4 years now but the last 1.8months in a stupid L3 support has literally made me hate s/w jobs. And not only that it has made me feel literally dumb enough for any development work or project, I fear am going to screw up the interviews and interviewers are going to think what a waste of time I was L

I have been going through this #1 Australian job site. It has loads to offer but almost every new job I want to try for needs previous experience. Am sure nobody is going to give me a trial work period and then make me permanent. And moreover am worried about what my folks and others might think if I take up some job which isn’t a great match for my degree… Also I don’t want Balaji to feel embarrassed about it… Am just so screwed. For the past few days the idea of an MBA struck me and I was happy thinking I can do an MBA and maybe take up a small job part time but after looking at the fee structure I literally freaked out. I would have to take a loan but with already a loan for the house I really don’t want me and balaji burdened with money matters. So there goes my MBA for a toss…

And just when I was about to apply for the saved jobs I realized that I could do any kinda work I want here but what happens when I go back to Chennai. Definitely we won’t be here for more than a year or so. Then what happens to my career when I go there? Here there are so many options and numerous jobs but back in India it’s just either Computers or Banking or your field of Engg… And after spending almost 3 whole days thinking over again and again I realized that maybe a career in testing wouldn’t be that bad when I go back. So here I am with my final decision (I hope so) – Am gonna get into some not so difficult job and also start attending courses for a career in Testing. And once I have mastered the Art of Testing and its various tools I shall join a job well suited. That way when I go back to Chennai I wouldn’t have difficulty finding a job. So hoping this does me some good…