This is more like a dear diary note. I wanted to talk to someone more like i wanted to cry to someone. Feeling a bit lonely. Just put down DD for her nightcap. Have had 2 cups of alcohol but still not feeling drunk nor dizzy. Damn you alcohol, failing me when i needed you the most.
Motherhood is the best thing that has happened to me. You think you love your husband/partner, sibling, friends or parents the most and cant love anyone more than that, but the moment you give birth and you hold the little one in your hands it feels like you have never loved anyone more. Its a non-measurable quantity of love and happiness that you feel.
Lately i just feel left out. All my energy is spent on work, then back at home cooking, cleaning and with DD that i don't even have a moment alone with him. At times i would wanna tell him something and she interrupts it every time. She doesn't even let me hold him and cries out if i still do. I cant make her understand that i like him too but who am i kidding she is just 2. Forget PDA there has been no HDA(Home Display of Affection) too for ages now. Its so overwhelming at times that i just wanna throw everything, run to a corner and cry out. I do cry at times when i put her to bed, waiting for to fall asleep.
For guys sex is everything, a way for them to relieve stress, makes them feel wanted, apparently makes them feel better if they are gonna catch a flu(Courtesy of FactsApp on Instagram), whoever did all this research should also know what girls need do they? If they did they should be putting out posters everywhere. She craves for a touch, a cuddle, just a look of reassurance saying i understand, am there for you no matter what during moments mentioned above. When i see couples holding hands, cuddling together or laughing for that matter makes me tear up wishing me some of those. Is it bad that i feel jealous when i see them? Its times like these i wish i was back home in India, at least i would get some time off DD and could get some quality time spent with him.
Motherhood is the best thing that has happened to me. You think you love your husband/partner, sibling, friends or parents the most and cant love anyone more than that, but the moment you give birth and you hold the little one in your hands it feels like you have never loved anyone more. Its a non-measurable quantity of love and happiness that you feel.
Lately i just feel left out. All my energy is spent on work, then back at home cooking, cleaning and with DD that i don't even have a moment alone with him. At times i would wanna tell him something and she interrupts it every time. She doesn't even let me hold him and cries out if i still do. I cant make her understand that i like him too but who am i kidding she is just 2. Forget PDA there has been no HDA(Home Display of Affection) too for ages now. Its so overwhelming at times that i just wanna throw everything, run to a corner and cry out. I do cry at times when i put her to bed, waiting for to fall asleep.
For guys sex is everything, a way for them to relieve stress, makes them feel wanted, apparently makes them feel better if they are gonna catch a flu(Courtesy of FactsApp on Instagram), whoever did all this research should also know what girls need do they? If they did they should be putting out posters everywhere. She craves for a touch, a cuddle, just a look of reassurance saying i understand, am there for you no matter what during moments mentioned above. When i see couples holding hands, cuddling together or laughing for that matter makes me tear up wishing me some of those. Is it bad that i feel jealous when i see them? Its times like these i wish i was back home in India, at least i would get some time off DD and could get some quality time spent with him.
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