I dono why but I feel so weird writing this... I'm so depressed and absolutely sad... In tears as I pen down these thoughts... Damn I hate this... I've always wanted a Love Marriage... Though I've seen a lot of failed love marriages I still preferred it cos I really don’t wanna marry some strange guy... I don’t wanna marry a weirdo... I wanted to prove to the world that love marriages still work and it’s in ur hands... I wanted mine to be a perfect love story with a perfect wedding... Guess it’s never gonna happen now... Yes, I’m officially screwed for life… I have said ok to this Business Analyst guy... My parents have been pestering me over him for a long time now… I have already seen this guy and said No… But apparently my NO wasn’t passed on to them… And so they are back in track asking for me… Why do you do this to me God???

Stranger - I don’t know anything about him other than he’s a Gold medalist from Anna University… That’s why my dad is so into this guy… I know he’s fair, looks fine, wears specs and is 2-3yrs elder to me… Is this enough for me to say ok? No… Absolutely No… I need to know him more… I need to know what his likes and dislikes are… If he’s a movie buff… If he likes reading books… What if he can’t talk English as fluently as me…? What if he hasn’t seen any English movies other than dubbed 1s…? What if kumudam and ananda vikatan are the only books he reads… God, then my life’s gonna be miserable for sure… I am not very sure of his dressing sense too… I’m very sure I can’t change his habits now… I will be the one who has to adjust… I really don’t wanna do so much for somebody whom I don’t even know… Why should I adjust? Give me 1 good reason for it… Oh no…. I really don’t wanna do it… Everybody tells me I’ll get a good guy… Will he be the 1? Will he like me for the way I’m? Will he love me truly? How can I take such a big decision in my life without knowing any of the answers…? Somebody tell me… Please… Is it really worth?

Mr. Perfect – I first saw him 1.5yrs back… I still remember those looks we exchanged… I dono if he remembers them… I haven’t mentioned it till date to him… He always intrigued me… And the more we saw each other the more I wanted to talk to him and know him… And then suddenly 1day I dint find him in his seat… After a coupla days I too moved away… I kinda got busy and forgot all about him…And then wonder of wonders I see him after months with a common friend… I started bugging my friend for details about him… My happiness knew no bounds when I found out he was single J He he… Ya… I always bugged my friend for an intro but somehow never got the guts to face it… My secret crush over him jus kept growing… And will you believe it when I was kinda forced to talk to him… Ya it was a mandatory thing I couldn’t escape from… I did talk to him… And guess after that there was no looking back… We talk lots… I know his likes and dislikes… I know what he does when he’s free… What kinda gal he wants etc etc… He has a good dressing sense… Everyday when I see him there’s this melody running inside my head and butterflies all around me J It’s a nice feeling you know… You should definitely experience it… At this point of time we are good friends… I really like him… He fulfills all the criteria for my Mr. Perfect… Whenever I look into his eyes I jus wanna go tell him how much I love him and what he means to me… But I know I’m never gonna do that… I really dono if I’m the right gal for him… I dono what he thinks of me so I really don’t wanna screw whatever we share… So guess I’ll never tell him that I like him… But I’ll always be waiting for him to give me jus a small signal which I can take as a YES… Wish he was mine forever…